I’m getting really so frustrated with Rafael. The other night when he picked me up from the house to have dinner, we had to stop by a PC shop along Aurora Blvd so he can get something for his friend Russell. He could have done that prior to picking me up but decided that I should wait for him in the car while he runs an errand for a friend.
Aren’t we having “quality time” issues? And yet, here we are spending time not really spending time with each other? That 1-hour at the store waiting for the counter guy to process his order would have been a good time for us to talk and catch-up. Geez.
I was already in such a lousy mood that I didn’t have an appetite for dinner at all.
In the car, I started telling him about a UST classmate’s sister who tried out for the Amazing Race Asia show. He didn’t even look like he had any interest in what I was telling him. At some point, I heard him humming to the music playing in his radio while I was talking. I suddenly stopped yapping and stared out the window.
He asked me about how my reviews are coming along. I answered curtly that it’s taking a lot of my time but last time I studied was right before the Pagsanjan trip. He started complaining about not being able to spend time that he wants to spend with me. He also added how I don’t make an effort to make time for him.
What?! I did a double take.
He continued with how I spend more time with others like when I spent the weekend with other medical interns instead of taking a trip with him and my impromptu coffee meet-ups with Vanessa and Charlize. He was visibly upset.
Excuse me, where was this coming from? Does he take time to meet up with me or ask me out lately?
I argued that me and the other medical interns needed a break after quite a busy month at the hospital. Besides, it was out first time to ever go out. What was the big deal? Why was he being so uptight about the trip to Pagsanjan Falls?
We further squabbled and I kept pointing out the fact that he spends so much time on his running and hanging out with friends on his past time when he could easily be the one to adjust his time for me.
I take one trip out of town and he makes it a point of his argument? Chill.
You're asking me to make time for you? Why don't you take the initiative and make time with me?
Dinner was quick and tasteless. Both of us were occupied with our own thoughts.
It was a quiet drive back home.
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